You, yes you.

Sunday, April 16, 2017 Nas 0 Comments


Ay.

 Hey, it's you.

 A charlatan in 3rd person POV.


Not knowing how to get through, you did everything recklessly.

How could you? How could you continue on faking the smile on your face?

How could you swallow and choke on your tears, struggling to hide everything?


Why would you do that?

Is torturing your own mental is a thing now? Is it okay for you to misuse them even though it is yours, not others?


A laughter erupted from one is not just a mere vibration.

It’s the sound of happiness yet you took advantage of them, turning them into useless music to your eardrums.


Yet in the same time you persuade yourself to appear frenetic in public, grinning from ear to ear when the fact is later at night you’ll bury yourself underneath the blanket, sniffing and sobbing in silence as well as gently doing so to not be notice by any other creatures.


Oh how cruel.

Inside out, sadly; you’re a phony


A pat would be nice

A hug would be even better


But you, my dear; being rock-headed and heart as soft as tissues, rather than being a direct person, you prefer to give maze kind of hints which lead to a deeper complexion and confusion for others to break through your wall. Thus, you failed to express therefore no pat, no hug. No anything for you.



Padan muka.

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EPC & A COTERIE OF COMPADRES

Friday, April 14, 2017 Nas 2 Comments

IT'S BEEN AWHILE!!!!!!!!

 Excuse the exclamation marks. I'm just too excited with the fact that I am able to write.
Look, there's droplets of water on the keyboard indicating mi happinesssss~
Let's forget about food for a sec which is rare to everyone since I am known as someone who talk about food like-- 23/7 a day lol.

Here's a teensy-weensy information-- uh news (?) or update ugh wtv but regarding how my life is going!!!!

 Again, excuse the interjection. 

 Aside from learning the hectic side of English, they're actually fun. Well, I won't deny it can feel like a real pain in the ass sometimes if you took a glance away from the lecturer/the board/the slides. One blink away & you might stray. Although I had a hard time keeping my sanity but hey, I managed to do so. Somehow. Not really. Meh :p

 Oh and, I get to meet with super duper cool clique as well! Surprisingly, I've never thought I can laugh during my degree years since there's this inner voice inside my head trying to scare me saying that ;

"Idk anyone in here how am I supposed to live someone help"

 Once again, I was surprised. They were so nice as in omg I don't deserve this kind of kindness lol jk.
Remember me and gastritis can never be a thing together but somehow we're tangled to each other sobs. I suffered real bad that one particular day and the WHOLE clique came and took me to the health center I mean we barely know each other yet?! Ai iz touched (wipe tears)

 Since I'm that type of person who can hate people easily yet I can get attached way more easily hahahahahaha so it is safe to say that I'm loving this group of bijess. Hek hek.

 BEWARE. I CAN BE SUPER CLINGY WHEN I LIKE U. Mweheheh.



 And the seniors of my course? They're nice too! (so far with those that I've met before) 
Tbh I was expecting any kind of badass behavior as in the haughty look on their face or anything.
Lmao none. Yet. 
Perhaps because they learnt Critical Thinking back then so that's why they can act human-ly..?

It's just that my friends kept on complaining on how the seniors from their faculty treated the freshies badly. As in torturing them physically and mentally. I mean come on, you're mature and big enough to initiate all those immature shiz. This is 2017 mah.

 Let's not forget about my curricular activities. I joined Outward Bound Kesatria (Kembara) AND I THINK I MADE A GOOD DECISION. 

 The instructor and even the commanders are nice and they're cute. Regardless the yelling when they were telling us to rush here and there. It wasn't that frequent compared to other groups. I've had enough of strict rules and yelling here and there during my high school years (again, wiping the tears) They tend to encourage us rather than scolding or chiding. Tak tahu lah kalau in the future we might get tortured lmao hahaha.

 I don't really want to get this excited since it's the first year. But I can't help it. 

Praises won't hurt.
Smiles won't bring down the pride.
Bonding isn't that bad.

 You don't let others to carve you a path. You're the one who navigate yourself to the side where you wanted to be in it. Therefore, go for it since you only live once (wink)


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